I couldn't agree more with the author of this article.
Reflection used to be a much more natural and very integral part of my everyday life and there is a great deal of personal growth that emerges from this kind of intentionally meaningful contemplation.
Why, then, is it so hard for me to actually embed this into my work life? It's an annual requirement for crying out loud. I think to myself, "Well, this is a piece of cake because I enjoy thinking about what I do and how I can improve it," but I inevitably fall behind in actually doing the work-related reflection in a timely manner.
I don't know what holds me back. I could easily use the "I just don't have time for this..." excuse, but that's simply not true. I can make time for it. I could record myself talking in the morning and transcribe it in the evening or something.
It's my procrastinating nature, for sure. I can't stand this part of me and I'm working hard to overcome this weakness, but it is a real doozy, this one. I need help, but I don't know what help I need. I have a schedule and I manage to stay fairly organized, but I must say, if procrastination is my first weakness, organization is a close second.
I love my job and I do it well, I believe. Well, the part that hooked me in the first place, anyway. I connect to my kids, and I'm very knowledgeable in my craft. They learn from me... and that's the point ultimately, isn't it? At the same time, I miss deadlines (sometimes very important ones), I can seem asocial at times because I just refuse to sit and gossip about who said what with the rest of the grade teams and so I can seem MIA, when in fact, you can always find me working.
I'm also a very creative soul, but that means I come up with idea after idea and it leaves me with no time to actually explore the expansion of any one of those ideas to their fullest potential because of the mandates that I am already falling behind on! <<gasp>>
Breathe, Folkes... just breathe.
I frustrate myself to no end with my two weaknesses, but what do I do? I'm going to try to keep up with my responsibilities by being two steps ahead. Deadlines should be posted on my computer screens (I travel from one side of the school to the other throughout the day). I need to become my own secretary.
How do some people do it though? I'm not alone, you know? I'm just talking about my work life here, but I'm also a husband, father, son, friend, etc... all wrapped into one.
I need to close the door sometimes. It would help me be better organized and procrastinate less, but if I do that, the door will always be closing on somebody or some opportunity... and I always have a hard time doing that for the sake of my own sanity.
That's a blessing and a curse wrapped into one as well. So what I do? Just keep going... but I know there's got to be a better way than this...
Reflection used to be a much more natural and very integral part of my everyday life and there is a great deal of personal growth that emerges from this kind of intentionally meaningful contemplation.
Why, then, is it so hard for me to actually embed this into my work life? It's an annual requirement for crying out loud. I think to myself, "Well, this is a piece of cake because I enjoy thinking about what I do and how I can improve it," but I inevitably fall behind in actually doing the work-related reflection in a timely manner.
I don't know what holds me back. I could easily use the "I just don't have time for this..." excuse, but that's simply not true. I can make time for it. I could record myself talking in the morning and transcribe it in the evening or something.
It's my procrastinating nature, for sure. I can't stand this part of me and I'm working hard to overcome this weakness, but it is a real doozy, this one. I need help, but I don't know what help I need. I have a schedule and I manage to stay fairly organized, but I must say, if procrastination is my first weakness, organization is a close second.
I love my job and I do it well, I believe. Well, the part that hooked me in the first place, anyway. I connect to my kids, and I'm very knowledgeable in my craft. They learn from me... and that's the point ultimately, isn't it? At the same time, I miss deadlines (sometimes very important ones), I can seem asocial at times because I just refuse to sit and gossip about who said what with the rest of the grade teams and so I can seem MIA, when in fact, you can always find me working.
I'm also a very creative soul, but that means I come up with idea after idea and it leaves me with no time to actually explore the expansion of any one of those ideas to their fullest potential because of the mandates that I am already falling behind on! <<gasp>>
Breathe, Folkes... just breathe.
I frustrate myself to no end with my two weaknesses, but what do I do? I'm going to try to keep up with my responsibilities by being two steps ahead. Deadlines should be posted on my computer screens (I travel from one side of the school to the other throughout the day). I need to become my own secretary.
How do some people do it though? I'm not alone, you know? I'm just talking about my work life here, but I'm also a husband, father, son, friend, etc... all wrapped into one.
I need to close the door sometimes. It would help me be better organized and procrastinate less, but if I do that, the door will always be closing on somebody or some opportunity... and I always have a hard time doing that for the sake of my own sanity.
That's a blessing and a curse wrapped into one as well. So what I do? Just keep going... but I know there's got to be a better way than this...
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